Reality

Hi! so this is my first blog post. i never knew how to use a blog with all the pretty templates that i always see people using it. Though i want my blog to be really pretty too, but for now i just need a space to write my thoughts. Im a thinker and think deeply. Even when im with a friend, i can think a lot and hide it. HAHA.

Finally ended year 1 and i guess it was the best year so far! :) feeling rather negative bout year 2 though... cos everything is going to be different. Somehow i feel i wont be able to find a close friend i have.. unlike year 1 where i have renee and honestly the world just revolves around both of us. We do not care about the others. We do everything tgt, even gg to toilet and all. and always eating the same food tgt (we never get sick of it)... :) All these happy times i miss it so badly.. urghh.. :( school is just so relaxing with her around :) and she will always always protect me cos she thinks im too kind HAHA. never felt so bless with a friend in school ever since she popped out and my sweetie pie haha. going to miss them a lot... sigh pies.

Friendship always meant a lot to me. In fact, more than relationship. Friendships to me are so important and priceless. Recently, i miss this friend a lot.. things are not going well between us. and I want our friendship back so badly. But is hard for me as well for her. But i will try and if i fail , i wana try harder :) this is a friendship worth fighting for.. and she is a friend so precious to me. i really cannot afford to lose her.. hah.. we overcome a lot tgt and i cant choose to give her up.. so many thoughts running through my head..

Im so sure that i want this a lot cos i guess i will never find someone as her anymore? who is so similar to me. . loud and noisy and acting cute is our pastime. I hope someday things will get better between us. For now, i needa focus on getting my things right in life and not feeling so negative waking up everyday.. cos so many people love me and they are constantly worried about me. I cant be so selfish and not think about them. i need lots of time to figure my thoughts, tilll then! :)